大悲咒

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Oyy5tuoF5mA

MR, i’m trying to memorize 大悲咒 but there are a couple of versiosn and some han yu pin yin is a bit different.
so can i check with you if this attached youtube one is accurate? thanks in advance.

xin bu ding

did my JZ today and i realised something.
i wasn’t able to concentrate due to the fact that i keep thinking about the future, thinking about what i should and should not have done for certain things, about some past and worse think about things that doesnt even concern me. but when i thought of mr saying that whatever will be will be, the thoughts suddenly stop coming to me and i was more relax and was just enjoying the music.
but of course the thoughts still come back but it is actually a bit better.

i think that you dont even need to focus on e.g. emptiness. but what you have to start with is the initial part of thoughts. that you dont need to think too much about anything and just flow with all the events that will happen in your life.

When doing DG, i was waving my hands around and i felt this warm feeling on my hands whenever i go near my altar. it’s like there is some heat aura forming in my altar.
anyhow, today just hear 1 knock on the window only. getting better now.

tired after a busy week

been doing my Pranic breathing, red marble, JZ and DG everyday since coming back from bangkok.
But the only thing is that when doing JZ. my mind keep drifting and have many thoughts trying to be more focus on my JZ but not so easy.

no more weapons

since coming to bkk. i did not use any weapons during DG.
it was mainly, my hands open and the ring finger folded actions
I will be waving around, reaching for the sky, touching the floor. something like doing tai ji now.
other than that, it was mainly all the same feelings as before.

halloween day

yesterday when doing the red marble.
the feeling that was greatest is always on the throat.
and recently when i moved the marble to my stomach, it sometimes feel painful and i feel like vomitting.
so basically that’s about it.

long cultivation

i think the only reason i can do a very long cultivation. it’s because i dont have any distraction from family members calling you to eat, want to talk to you etc etc.
i’m living by myself and i can cultivate as long as i want without distraction.

so about today’s session. after about 30 mins of dong gong based on the reiki music, i have this sudden energy from the bottom to the top and feel my movements were a lot smoother.
and it ended with both hands together.

i really have to use this chance of staying by myself to cultivate more.

window friend is here to stay

when i came back, i keep having this teeth “numb” feeling and my ring finger will keep folding during normal activities.

still have the knocking on the window issue and sometimes when i have a new feeling when doing jing zhou, it will knock 1 time like when you use your knuckles to hit the window. and it actually did it again when i have another new feeling. this is quite weird but as usual i did not bother about it too much.

i have stayed in many places before and whatever is happening is definately not normal; you probably can hear “ei” “ei” like the sound of the edge of something slightly moving but that is normal. But something knocking on your window……. and mostly when you cultivate is definately not normal. if there is a knock on your door, you know that someone is there, get what i’m trying to say?
But if i get a shock by it, suddenly there is a white light for about 1 second.

and yesterday night, i had a strange feeling when i was about to sleep and felt something strange and my heart started beating quite fast. but i did not care again and went to sleep.
i dont want to be cocky but i’m confident whatever is out there cannot disrupt me.

tonight’s feeling

feeling on the throat again. i was pulling my head back to like stretch my throat and vibration at the throat area during jing zhuo.
got warm feeling at my stomach during marble session and of course even as i am typing now. my upper teeth got some kind of a numb feeling.

and then went to watch chanting videos and cry again.

crying

during my gui yi, i felt like crying but did not cry.
so just now i try to cry again but watching the buddhist chanting on youtube.
dont know why just seeing 大悲咒 this 3 words feel very touch already.
i cry big time man, see 大悲咒, heart sutra and all.
keep crying and crying then suddenly..
i open my mouth real big and started stretching as big as possible and my tongue came out then my saliva started to drip out and keep doing this for about 5 mins then it stop.
but now i feel much better..
shifu any advice?

2 hrs cultivation

amazing! this is the first time i did a cultivation that last for almost 2 hours.
i think i did the jing zhuo for 1 hr plus and dong gong for half an hour.
my knees hurts a lot when i got up and i knew it was a long time.
but i thought i was only for a while and you dont even notice that it was so long.
i got this vibration at my throat area during jing zhuo but i try not to think what is going on and just let it happen and not get distracted by it.
shifu says: “dont think about it, hope for for it and wonder why but be calm as water and let your ling do what it has to do.”

shifu got some questions.
1) after i completed the red marble below my naval, do i need to imagine anything else? or do i go straight to jing zhuo?
2) can i move my body and head during jing zhou?